Transformation, Destruction, Creation, Regeneration, Healing, Renewal, Power Struggles, Upheaval, Upheaval, UPHEAVAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am a very curious person when it comes to knowing my self and my path in life. I do not take it lightly. I am always seeking out information about myself from my Ancestors, Readers, Intuitive People, astrology you name it because I want to know. I also do a great amount of meditation seeking answers. I want it get it right this incarnation. So I do all things with in my power to make myself grow. I challenge myself always just as a means of experiment for my own wisdom. But, nothing could prepare me for the spiritual transformation that Pluto brought to my life when it decided to sit on my Sun for the past 3 to 4 years. There are so many different things that can influence your life to say the least. That is why you should really want to know as much about yourself as you can so that you can continue to go forward. Some times you want to go forward and no matter how hard you try, you can not! It is not always your fault but the circumstances you might find yourself in. If you don't understand certain things then you may not understand what is happening. This could throw you into a very deep depression, you could become suicidal or maybe just considered a bum by today's standard when all of these things could just be far from the truth of who you are.
Recently, I discovered that I have spent the last 3/4 years with the planet Pluto sitting on my Sun. It might would have been a little less daunting if I knew at the time what was going on even though I could not have changed it. Those years where the hardest years of my life that I can remember. Very challenging to say the least but, the growth achieved that point it my life will propel me forward in many ways that I don't even know of yet. Let me first tell you a little about Pluto. The planet that was not a planet that became a planet again. Weird would you not say!!! Actually, Pluto does not belong to this solar system. It the outer rings of a solar system right besides ours. But they don't talk about that much.
In the birth chart, Pluto shows the area of life where you will experience the intense powers of creation and destruction. It's the door way through which volatile compress pockets of self, spirit and primal energy lies hidden, which are released by your own efforts or by provocation from the outside world.
Pluto's energy will not be suppressed but it's power is often feared. This can put you in a showdown between your greatest fears being destroyed, and pursuit of your deepest longings in your heart. The Ego holds to its defenses, but Pluto allures you to let go and surrender to become the new person. When chaotic shake us at the foundations, it could be Pluto provoking change at the Fundamental level. We might not think we exist with out the ground beneath us, our sense of who we are, but if we are brave we come to discover there is life after this kind of ego death.
Pluto also deals with power and personal power. It shows up when perfectly capable people end up under the thumb of someone else's control. So my story at least the part that I am willing to share was that after I left my husband, I was at the mercy of so many people helping me out because I had no money. I was still finishing my program and working in the student clinic. I depended on the tips from the massages but people did not tip much, so I did not have very much money and living at the mercy of generous people.Every four months or so someone would ask me to leave and I would have to find another place to leave. Some of my friends would not even let me live with them because I did not have any money. Talk about scary times, I was almost homeless. I applied for job but not came. So of my friends would bring care packages so that I had food. I often felt that the Universe had abandon me. Whenever I tried to get out of the situation it was as if Pluto grip got stronger and stronger. So eventually, I stopped fighting. I starting just doing stuff I could control. Meditation, exercise, sun gazing, vision board, you name it. Sometimes, a little more money would come my why that would also me to do a few things but nothing substantial. Finally, I was able to move from Arizona back to DC. I had to live with my sister and what I thought would be a few months turned into 2 years. But the growth that I have experience is immeasurable. I am finally at a place that in a couple of more months, I will be able to move. Pluto and my second Saturn return have moved on. I can feel a big difference inside myself and the energy around me. But, it was no joke. It was very very hard and sad, and scary all at the same time. Fortunately, I did have some lovely people around me who assisted me whenever they could. The Universe sent me them.
For me I had two major events going on at the same time because I entered a period of time called my second saturn return around the age of 57-58 yrs old. Well you may say what is that exactly, let me tell you about this. The Second Saturn Return means that the planet Saturn has completed or is completing the second cycle of its 29 year long orbit around the Sun, and has returned to its position in the sky when you were born. It also happens in your twenties somewhere around 27-29 years old. I don't know how many people keep up with this sort of thing. But, if you did you too are living a very magical life. To really get to the root of who you are is a gift in my opinion. The Second Saturn return is a very influential and potentially challenging time, rich with possibilities for setting the tone and trajectory for the next part of your life. The movement of Saturn back to its natal position signifies that themes related to the planet Saturn will figure prominently in your life.
All of the planets are linked with particular archetypal aspects of human experience. Saturn is thematically linked with time, maturation, credibility, experience and the wisdom of the elders, responsibility, duty, authority and alignment with Universal laws. The Second Saturn Return brings with it an awareness of mortality. Saturn slows you down and forces you to take a long hard look at reality. How much time do you have left? How do you want to spend it? There really is no time left for procrastination, otherwise time will be up and those books will never be written or paintings painted.
Ironically as the remaining time diminishes, subjectively it passes with ever increasing speed. The Second Saturn Return is an epoch of life review and soul searching. How did you get here? Is this really where you want to be? Often it represents a crossroads of sorts, and an opportunity to deal at last with unfinished business. Sometimes this means getting rid of people, jobs and situations that no longer fit who you are or want to be. There is a taking stock that can culminate in a kind of purging and reordering of your life. This death of the old way of doing things can be painful, but subsequently, there is often a feeling of relief and gratitude that you are no longer stuck in circumstances that no longer served you.
Saturn is also known as the Lord of Karma or Lord of the Harvest. You will reap what you sowed. It is a time when hard work will be rewarded, but if there has been neglect or carelessness, the natural consequences will not be able to be avoided.
There was so much going on that I did not know if I was going or coming. Forced to let go of a lot of stuff that no longer served me. But, at the same time not knowing what things needed to be put in it's place. Letting go of dreams, ideas, thoughts, feelings, wants and desires can be a challenge. Now since I ham just moving on from this place, I can't tell you what will become of me at this time. Although there is certainly a lot of room for growth and development and new ideas. So as always I am up for the self expression as it presents itself. I trust that this information will give you some idea, of the kinds of things available. I am not sure if every one experiences Pluto on their sun. My everyone experiences Saturn returns. So please take the time to study the kinds of things that could happen and compare you life to them and see where you are.
In La'Kesh, (I am another yourself) Peace, Love, and Happy Transformation